Category: Daily Ramblings

Oh well.. I was actually reading through my year 2005 entries.. Entries posted long ago at sunshine.cloudie.net, but using a different blog engine. And I just decided to delete all of them. All till Sep2006.

I had a good laugh at myself while reading. Seeing how foolish I’d been, believing people so easily, trusting him to stay faithful.. the many many encounters I’ve had during that year. Deleted the web access to those entries. The only way to dig them out now, is to extract from the database =) Not going to transfer them over to this engine.

Brand new start. I know I’ve a different mindset now. No longer harping over the past. Looking forward to the present. Not “looking forward to the future”, coz future depends on how we live our present.

And yes.. I love this phrase from one of my Apr2005 entries.
“I look at the cookie, the cookie stared at me with a sinister look. I got angry and I ate it” Apparently it was quoted by Ansley back then. It just.. sounds so cute that I laughed when I read it. 😀

Alrighty! I’ve updated part of my list of long-due songs. Songs that I came across over the past few months, but too busy to find the lyrics. Wanted to use them as a reminder to myself, but I think it’s hard.

Oh well =)

I’ve not had the time to upload photos of my company’s retreat. Have not had the time to download the photos taken with my phone (though I’ve uploaded to my photo blog).

Procrastinating.

On many issues. Not just one.

Been thinking a lot. Sometimes I really wish I’m back to many years ago, when I had the confidence to do what I want, work towards my goal, fight for what I think is right.

Keep thinking that life is so fragile. Which is a fact anyway. Had been pessimistic. Trying hard to remain optimistic, but somehow the fragility of life brought me down. =(

Keeping myself busy at work to prevent myself from thinking so much.

Not enough sleep for the past weeks, too deadly. That I slept for 14hrs this morning. The day didn’t turn out well anyway. Shan’t talk about it.

Countdown: 6 days!

Just back from grad night. Not mine of course =)

Had a short chat with the young generation of the alumni, not that I’m any older by the way, and were discussing about our plans for the alumni anniversary event next year, of which one item was the “showcase” of our alumni celebrities.

Of which, one of them suddenly mention he saw one of the celebrities @ HV 3 months back, when the celebrity was reportedly to be overseas. And the way he put it, he seem disgusted that the celebrity was back in SG and was seen with the rumored partner.

I wasn’t angry, I totally can understand the youngsters’ mentality. But it led me to think that celebrities are also human. They have their privacy. Yes, they are reportedly to be overseas undergoing training or whatsoever, but they have the freedom to fly back to their hometown to visit their family, to settle their personal stuff. What’s wrong with that? It’s not like their lives are yours to control. They have their rights to be wherever they want, the rights to do whatever they want. They are just like you, a normal human being, who chose the entertainment industry as their stepping stone to earn big bucks. Whatever life they have, is practically NONE of our business. As long as they produce good work to entertain us, which is what’s more important, isn’t it?

There was something I wanted to write about. Really. But I just can’t seem to recall what it is about.

Grateful for this 1 day break from work. Had a nice “workout” in the pool, then @ the suana. Probably I should start doing that more often.

Letting go of something that I’ve been holding on dearly to for the past 1 year, is not an easy feat. Still working on it. =)

Alumni meeting this Sat. 1 year break from it, am I back to it again? I need some change to my life, will this be it?

As the topic says, (nope I didn’t get it from the CH8 show) the only constant is change. Sounds strange yet so true. The only thing that remains unchanged in our lives, is change. Changes always happen, regardless of you like it or not. Just so interesting. With the many changes that is always on the roll, we need to adapt to them. I realise it’s not easy to adapt to changes, having been going through a rough patch of mental struggle these days. We just have to face it, running away won’t help.

Yeah changes. We love you!

Gosh..

Left house early, with the intention to reach office earlier to finish my stuff. A 9min bus ride, took me 1hr this morning! o.O

What a waste of time. Had to work OT in the end, left office at 12midnight!

Dead tired now. After a 35min gaming session. Time to sleep.

While on my way back, I realise.. all cab drivers are dangerous drivers. The cabbie was driving at 110km/h!

I need to talk about the trip to IKEA Tampines on Sun. If the wait on Sat wasn’t long enough, I had to wait 1.5hrs @ Ikea Tampines. = Thanks for letting me stone.

Contemplating between OT on a Sat or badminton session. I chose badminton instead. =D

BUT

I was made to wait 1 hour for 3 guys. o.O Was almost not in the mood to play by the time they reached. Left with only 40mins, somehow or the other, no1 came to take ownership of the court when it went past our booking time. So we continued. ha..

Pastamania @ West Mall still serves huge servings. Couldn’t finish my food as usual. But I had a super yummy potato salad!

Feeling hungry now. Skipped dinner.

Though I’m taking a break from office, my mind can’t stop thinking about work.

Oh yes! My sites are launched! 4 sites launched within a week!

Check them out! =)

• Nokia Nseries 14 Days Vodcast
• Discover Darwin with Tiger Airways

These sites nearly killed me when they were lived. They came on top of my current workload. Almost suffocated.

Kies I’d better stop rambling about work. Though I’m proud of it, I’d better not get workaholic in any case.

1230am, time to have a good night’s sleep on a beautiful weekend!

I actually have got nothing to post. haha!

Ok there is one actually.. Been on a shopping spree. Got a new pair of specs, new lingerie, new clothes, new shoes!

Nothing to boast of. But $500 spent within 1 week. There goes my extra cash.

Feeling pretty tired (physically) these days. Just seem to be more tired despite the hours of sleep I’m getting, eyes just get more dreary despite not wearing contact lens. oh gosh.. thankfully, it’s the WEEKEND!!!

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to prevent having a separate short entry, I’ll just append it here.

For my dear friends who heard what happened 2 yrs back, what the f**ked up person did, you’ll be glad to know that I’m all ready to face a new start. It came as a sudden thought that, “hey! I’m no longer bothered about it”. As the saying goes, it takes more energy to hate someone than to just simply let it go. If you choose to forget, you won’t be able to forget. Accept what happened, let it go, you’ll soon realise it just doesn’t bother you anymore.

It worked. =)

Was sms-ing the birthday boy a few weeks back

Me: Happy Birthday Dude!
Him: Thanks gal! 🙂 hugs
Me: So managed to hitch any gal 2nite?
Him: No leh.. waiting to hitch u
Me: Dun try that on me dude.. Doesn’t work.

*faints*

I guess it would have been boring if my posts had been about how mundane my life had been, how much stress I was facing at work, how boring my days were when they were just home > work > home everyday.

But seriously, Oct/Nov are hectic months @ work. Many projects on hand, and learning new stuff at the same time. So busy that the hours passed very fast, so busy that I only want to be back home as early as I could and let my brain cells rest. Any after-work activities were rejected. I’m free after work yes, but sorry I don’t feel like going anywhere else other than home. =) Though I’m usually gaming till 12+ 1am, at least I’m in the comfort of my home. A place where I feel most at ease at night.

Oh well.. Oct is almost coming to an end. Blogging has become more of a blog-only-when-very-free thingy, than of a habit that I used to have. Having faced the computer screen for long hours at work, the only thing I feel like doing at night is to play some games =) But don’t worry, I’ll try to update as often as I can.

Actually have got photos in my phone, but I’ve yet transferred them out. That gotta wait I guess.. till I’m in the mood =|

PMS if you call it, had been in quite a lousy mood for the past week. And yes, that includes today though it had been quite happening on the mahjong table.

Tired. In quite a few aspects. Physically tired, which all started from the cup of teh-si I had. Eyes in pain! Mentally tired. You know it. Not pushing further for what I want, is that considered as giving up? 不甘心.. but what can I do about it? Do the obvious hint that says “This is what I’d been feeling all along”? Sigh.. Taking a step (probably it’s many steps) back. Tired to keep thinking about it. Tired from trying to think on how to get my point across. Freaking tired.

Quoted from Beni.

20 more hours. Let’s wait and see what kind of story I can churn out. hee