Month: July 2008

Don’t watch with other people ok! Let’s watch together!!

I’m sick of organising gatherings. Sending emails like 1 week in advance, no one responded with venue suggestions.

So, of course, the organiser had to make the decision right? Since the gathering is fixed on a friday, reservations had to be done early.

All set on Monday. Sms-ed those who didn’t confirm attendance via email. All ok.

And the organiser is feeling happy.

The night before, when all had been set & confirmed, a sudden suggestion to change location -_-

I dunno.. I felt a pain at the heart. Just like someone took a knife and stabbed on me. Not from the back but from the front. The heart felt heavy.

It’s like.. as the organiser, when still in the planning stage, tried asking for suggestions. When all’s confirmed, then someone suggest change in venue. Somehow it felt like someone threw my work back at me and say “redo”. When I know I tried my best to accomodate everyone.

And the msn conversation went out of control.

I wanted to object the change in location, and knowing me, I usually don’t say “no” outfront. I’m more like a weakling. I know I’ll end up following people’s instructions if I don’t say it out. And I did just that. I violent object the change in location. And somehow, the conversation got a bit embarassing in the sense that we’re all good friends. I don’t feel good.

Though the location is changed back to the originally-planned one, I don’t feel comfortable. Like the mood is gone.

But then, from another point of view, this could be a way of telling me that we really are good friends. ‘Coz when you’re close enough, you’ll be treating everyone like family that you don’t care if they violent object or not. You just want to say your piece, even if it’s at the last minute. ‘Coz you’re comfortable with them.

But probably, there could be a better way of putting things across.

Oh well. Hope things don’t turn out to be very akward tomorrow at the dinner.

Minimal updates, gone missing, lack of response on MSN. But there’s still constant update on Plurk that you can see on the right bar.

What have I been up to?

Work.

And more work.

Actually it’s just 1.

But it’s enough to take away my time.

Ansley was back few weeks ago, managed to catch up with him for a short dinner, before he had to rush off to babysit his nieces -.- I think I miss the frequent updates on the 3 gals 😀

I’m hoping meet-ups with my gfs can get more frequent. Guess that’s the only way I can get away from work. Bored with my life.

I need more activities in my life. Like visiting the HortPark, or going prawning. Or more movies perhaps.

On a sidenote, congratulations to Shufen on her official graduation from NUS!

My aunts were at my place yesterday. No idea why they were suddenly so adventurous, knowing that Jiawen is coming back on Sat night, they suggested going to the airport to receive her. o.O Jiawen you must be touched eh! Left the airport only at 11pm after a half hour wait for the bus.

Woke up today at noon with a headache, so irritating that I nearly vomit whatever I ate. Forced myself to sleep and felt so much better after waking up at 6.30pm 😀

Still feeling tired. There’s still a slight heacache, hoping it’ll get better tomorrow morning.

Finally had a chance to blog, even for a short one.

I wanted to write something, had some thoughts just now. But at the thought of being so busy at work, I succumbed to the temptation of reading blogs that I checked out pretty often.

And after reading those blogs, I lost my thoughts.

I’m feeling tired, mentally. Ha.. To say that I love my job. I still do, but in the midst of rushing project, my brain had been at work everyday, weekends inclusive. Despite being on the badminton court, reading novel or playing MapleStory, the brain was still thinking of work. How and where should the logic go. =|

I’m deprived of brain-freedom now. Totally. Even mapling doesn’t help these days.

Gfs are busy with their work, while a good-cum-close gf starting to plan for her wedding next year.

Boo.

I need to catch up at work. Super steep learning curve I had, and still having. Learning and getting the project to work at the same time. 2 weeks behind schedule, how great.

Work life, I guess, is still under check, just need to buck up. Personal life wise, is in a real mess. Pressure from everywhere. Sigh.

Ahhh I hate it when the many thoughts can’t be brought out of the mind. Makes one feel terrible.

No idea why I keep losing my thoughts 🙁