The Bright Sunshine

So I made the first step, and I got it. But rejected it ultimately. If this goes on, I can never move on.,

First heard this song in the Kpop drama – Dream High (Episode 14) (or maybe I have the SuJu’s version, can’t remember..), and I googled. This is the original version (I think!) and I think it’s nicer!

난 난 꿈이 있었죠
버려지고 찢겨 남루하여도
내 가슴 깊숙히 보물과 같이 간직했던 꿈

혹 때론 누군가가
뜻 모를 비웃음 내 등뒤에 흘릴 때도
난 참아야 했죠 참을 수 있었죠
그날을 위해

늘 걱정하듯 말하죠
헛된 꿈은 독이라고
세상은 끝이 정해진 책처럼
이미 돌이킬 수 없는 현실이라고

(chorus)
그래요 난 난 꿈이 있어요
그 꿈을 믿어요.나를 지켜봐요
저 차갑게 서 있는 운명이란 벽앞에
당당히 마주칠 수 있어요

언젠가 나 그벽을 넘고서
저 하늘을 높이 날을 수 있어요
이 무거운 세상도 나를 묶을 순 없죠
내 삶의 끝에서
나 웃을 그날을 함께해요

Translated lyrics

I have a dream
Even if it is shredded or torn,
In my heart,
I’ve cherished it like a treasure

Even if I’m mocked behind my back,
I’ve endured
I could stand it,
waiting for that day

You always say worriedly,
Foolish dreams are poisonous
Just like the world is a book with a fixed ending,
it’s a reality that can’t be turned back

Yes, I have a dream
I believe in that dream,
Watch and see
In front of that cold brick wall called fate
I can stand confidently

One day, I’ll climb over that wall
I’ll be able to fly as high as the sky
Even this heavy world can’t tie me down
At the end of my life,
on that day that makes me smile
Be with me

Not that this date is anything significant, but I couldn’t think of a more suitable title as there just wasn’t any particular topic that I want to write about.

Time just passes so fast when work had been keeping me extremely busy – with a record breaking of 2hrs sleep every night for consecutive 2 weeks.

Many milestones of the project to be met, not to mention the many deliverables tagged to each of it.

April was a month of 6-workday weeks. Life was horrendous, being in office throughout the long weekends. I was already deadbeat when Sunday came, that I couldn’t be bothered to venture out of Tungchung. Sleep was priority in the list.

Good life of more-decent-work-hours didn’t last long, before the project manager declared 6-workday week again, with effect from this week.

I kept being told, official work day means extra allowance. But I tell you, it just doesn’t matter anymore. If my rest hours can be compensated with monetary gains, I must have had endless energy that surpasses machines!

All I can wish for now, is for this stint to end soon. I can do with a break. The leaf that I posses, had been living with the snowman for so long that it doesn’t have any warmth now.

Finally made the first step..

Was watching Glee II on tv last weekend, and that episode was playing this song.. And I got hooked to it. 🙂

Charice – As Long As You’re There

all my life
i’ve waited for the right
moment to let you know
i dont wanna let you go oh

now i realize
there’s just no perfect time
to confess how i feel
this much i know is real

so i refuse to
waste one more second without you
knowing my heart

chorus:

baby cause i dont
need anything else but your love
nothing but you means a thing to me
i’m incomplete
when you’re not there
holding me touching me elsewhere
how long the risk could just dissapear
and i will not even care
as long as you’re there

take this word
dont let them go unheard
this is me reaching out
i hope you can hear me now

this pain in my heart stands stay
taking is yours to break
having to try and lose
then keep this love from you

so i refuse to
waste one more second
without you
knowing my heart

(repeat chorus)

bridge:
each day
and i
that i
kept it a secret
and it killed me
it’s time
to share what i feel inside

(repeat chorus)

Why is it that the me now just hides in one corner, whenever I’m faced with a challenge that I have no confidence of overcoming?

What happened to my 理论 of 幸福是要自己争取的 ?

Probably.. my life would have been better if I had not met you.

Bliss is sitting in front of the teevee doing my own things, while the guys are in the kitchen preparing dinner. :p

For the first time in history, I actually left office at 6 today. Decided to just take whatever break and continue work when I feel like it. Just like last night, when I locked myself in the room for some me-time, only to end up doing work. At the very least, I felt no stress. Work done with no stress is usually the best product that can be produced, isn’t it? 🙂

Had been very emo last week, possibly due to not enough sleep plus the many overdue work. This outstation has actually allowed me to understand myself better. Saw my weak points, how I react under different situations.. While most of it are negative reactions, I’m pretty sure there are positive traits that I’m (still) unaware of.. fingers crossed..

Emo-ed to the extent I almost teared in front of BFF, during dinner. Lack of sleep, tiredness, cold weather, stress, homesick.. you name it, I (almost) have them all..

Looking forward to the end of the project. Oh wait, no.. looking forward to the end of my stint here in HK. Work is crazy, and we’re without the comfort of our loved ones and friends back home. No one, yes I repeat, NO ONE, can feel our stress. When one say he/she can understand, I really doubt so. Unless you are here long term like us, you wouldn’t know.

Being hiatus from blogging  is becoming a norm. Can hardly find time to look at the screen and blog. I really do miss blogging and the photography outings.

Can’t wait to be back home for good.

Simply thankful I have BFF who is able to understand, for we’re on the same boat. Having a 战友 whom you can share your happiness and sadness with and able to fight this battle together, is a real bliss.

Different people have different working styles. By enforcing your working style on us, it doesn’t mean we can be as productive. Even if we are, quantity doesn’t equate to quality.

I have my own working style. The good life that I had enjoyed was widely known, looking at the amount of responses I get on Facebook whenever there are such posts. But who knew about those late nights that were put in, to make sure that we are up to YOUR standard?

We work in a different way. Our policies are different. So stop stressing that we are not up to YOUR standard, and stop playing politics with us. Life is already hard as it is, stop making it worse for us.

kthxbye.

新的一年，新的希望。我家的那只龙（虾）跟大家拜个年咯！