The Bright Sunshine

A recent turn of events made me think deeper into the word death. Part and parcel of life, you may say.

Recently I keep thinking about how life will be like when I’m old. When I’m an old and fragile woman, difficulties in walking, will the society still be the same? Will I be able to travel to and fro as freely as I can now?

What if I’m already on my deathbed? What is the kind of feeling when you’are about to stop breathing?

2 funerals at my void deck on the same day. Got me thinking if there’s after-life. When the next time I come back to earth, will things still be the same? it is at times like this that I wish I have someone to hug me and say that everything’s alright.

I wish these thoughts will go away soon. They’re taking away all my courage in life, not to mention the unseen stress that has been showered upon me at school.

Confidence level has dropped drastically these days, due to you-know-what. Ask me if you want to know. I hate things as they are right now, but life still goes on.

Where did all my courage go to?

Wow I’m honoured to have one of wordpress’s mentor here! Nevertheless, I’ve a feeling I won’t be able to get the project. Should have been able to think of a better proposal if not for the tons of workload these days. =)

Tons of unspeakable misery, unspeakable complaints. Not exactly unspeakable, but best left as it is for this entry.

Where oh where are the courage and beliefs that I badly need?

It’s the first time I’m having panda eyes =( And I realised it only when I reached home at 10+pm. OMG the panda eyes looked so obvious even with makeup on!

The quiz this morning was a killer. No one remembered there’s a quiz until the lecturer bombed us during Tues lecture. 3 late nights didn’t help. I still died in today’s quiz.

So tired that I decided to come back home and rest, and to complete the remaining part of the assignment.

I guessed the contact lens played a part in making my eyes tired. It’s almost due to make a new pair. Probably I should get a half-year supply and put on standby first. The current permanent ones is almost dying.

If things go smoothly, I should be able to graduate this May. *fingers crossed* Time to work out my finances and figure out the best way of clearing the bank loan.

Sounds quite random, but the thought of blogging this came to my mind. Met up with Grouser for dinner at suntec! We didn’t realise it’s natas fair now, suntec is so crowded! Gd thing we met as early as 5pm, so we had fish & co for dinner! With no difficulties finding seats! xD Aimless walking around suntec after that. We ended up buying voodoo dolls for each other! Hahaha.. Got her one for career advancement, and she got me a studies charm! woohoo! It’s now hangly nicely on my Z610i! xD

Was a long wait for bus 960 after that. The last time I waited at the very same bus stop for the same bus, I waited 30mins and took cab in the end. Waited 40mins for the bus 2dae. i seriously wonder how thebus company plans the schedule. 40mins is too long a wait, especially when it’s a Sun evening ( the previous time I was there ) and a Friday night at Esplanade. So pissed off.

Suddenly I feel tired of studying. Sometimes there are things that I longed to do, but can’t do due to constraints. Discouraged as I may be, I strongly believe I can overcome these challenges no matter how tough they can be.

Ganbatte! I need all the courage and beliefs that I can find =)

Kudos to WordPress!

Got this link from my admin page. Check out the website for more details. Note that you have to apply by this Sat 24 Mar =D

*applause*

New design! Doesn’t seem to be as bright as the previous one, but it’s agreed that this design is definitely unique and is an interesting idea. Not all links are in yet, but the main blog urls are all here. =D

More updates. Finally submitted the FYP report on Monday. Not an easy task when the FYP is not completed, but still managed to put in the relevant details and coughed out about 7k worth of words. xD

IBM recruitment talk on Mon evening. Jiawei & Norman dropped by! Jiawei is as serious and Norman is still as funky as before. Haha =D

Gave myself a day break and spent the whole of Tuesday mapling. Only to realise that there’s a module quiz on Friday! haha.. Think I’ve skipped too many lessons! Time to get back on track!

More updates will be done to this design. I still think I’ll revert back to the orangy theme. =D