The Bright Sunshine

An hour by the sea is a miracle.

Really glad to have 2 best budz around. Got jio-ed out for dinner @ IKEA. Really grateful to them for being there when I felt so down. Couldn’t decide where to go after dinner, I made a sudden request to go ECP after we were halfway to dunno where. LoL. And off we go!

It was a nice break from school work. The few hours of chitchat and laughter did cheer me up lots. Feeling so refreshed and energized now!

Thank you Jem & Jkai =)

I wonder if the series of having low self-esteem and low self-confidence is a sign of depression.

The whole day 2dae felt like it was a dream. Project meeting in the morning, FYP meeting in the afternoon. As I was heading back home on the bus, it suddenly ocurred to me that I had totally no recap of the nitty gritty details of what happened prior to that. I felt lost and tired. Was stoning throughout the whole journey, still awed with the amount of work left undone. It was then when I asked myself if these are signs of depression. I’m already on the verge of breaking down, especially after the episode.

Felt like I was in a dream, somehow in a way or other, I managed to find my way home.

Concussed the moment I reached home. Gosh it was a long time since I last felt so tired. I practically didn’t feel like waking up for dinner when my dad attempted to wake me up by shaking the bunk bed.

I need a break.

It is scary when you think of death in the middle of a lecture. The thought just flashed by and almost scared me. ><

Had been a tiring day, must have been due to the lack of sleep. I can see the dark eye rings getting obvious – a sign that I’m really catching up on age.

Life for the past week(s) had not been going very smoothly, with hiccups here and there. No motivation to blog about happy things. Perhaps I’ve been thinking too much, but the low self-esteem and self-confidence seems to be increasing at an alarming speed. Some may think I dun give a damn about certain things, truth is my approach towards it is different. I don’t like to argue, since I always lose the argument all the time. Which always ended up me being silent even though I’ve been accused of doing things that I didn’t do. My self-esteem and self-confidence had been greatly affected, and it feels worse to bottle everything inside.

And I feel lonely ‘coz there isn’t anyone whom I can talk this to. =(

Thanks to Friendster, I got to know how 2 of my lost-touch friends have been since we last met many years ago. One is already married with a 7 mth old baby gal. Not surprised, since we’re all of marriageable age now. It feels great to know how she’d been. Really missed her around in SG.

I have more to say but nowhere to start on. Prob is I’m too tired. Had not been having enough sleep these days

Gal A and Guy B were classmates in school. Gal had a crush on Guy back then. Till now Gal has been consistently giving Guy her support in whatever Guy does.

One day, Gal chanced upon Guy’s diary. In one particular entry, Guy wrote about a gal called XiaoAi, who had been with him for many years and constantly giving him her support. Guy wrote that he is grateful to her.

Guy’s friends knew about XiaoAi, but also knew that it was not the real name, but a nickname given by Guy. At a recent class gathering, being mutual friends, Guy’s friends keep hinting that XiaoAi is actually Gal A.

Both of them kept quiet and did not have any response.

What a dream. Details of it were remembered so clearly that I knew at once who Guy & Gal was. But just what does the dream mean?